“What is God teaching you through all of this?”
i guess at the time i was still pretty hurt and angry. those feelings subside and then they come right back, but i guess i do know what God is teaching me….
1. nothing suprises Him- He wasn’t like, “How did that happen?” He knew it was going to happen and He will use my situation so that He will be glorified.
2. that a true Resurrection Life is based on choosing Love over Hate-this was made very evident to me at a party i went to and a friend introduced me to his child as one who does that and i wasn’t. so today i choose to love and tomorrow, i’ll have to wake up again and choose love.
3. that apart from Him, i can do nothing-i can’t choose to love unless i’m truly grafted into Him. that whole vine and branches analogy, it’s true.
4. Galatians chapter 5 has been my heartbeat for the last 4 weeks-i want to be grafted into the vine, so that i can produce good fruit.
So I say, let the Holy Spirit guide your lives. Then you won’t be doing what your sinful nature craves. 17 The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions. 18But when you are directed by the Spirit, you are not under obligation to the law of Moses.
19 When you follow the desires of your sinful nature, the results are very clear: sexual immorality, impurity, lustful pleasures, 20 idolatry, sorcery, hostility, quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish ambition, dissension, division, 21envy, drunkenness, wild parties, and other sins like these. Let me tell you again, as I have before, that anyone living that sort of life will not inherit the Kingdom of God.
22 But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!
24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have nailed the passions and desires of their sinful nature to his cross and crucified them there. 25 Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit’s leading in every part of our lives. 26 Let us not become conceited, or provoke one another, or be jealous of one another.
so i want to not follow my desires, but live this Resurrection, Kingdom life. God is teaching me to let go of anger, hurt, bitterness and sorrow. i’m sure there will be some poems and songs come out of this, but for now, let’s just pray that i’ll be a tree of LIFE producing the good fruit that God has set out for me to produce.