the sermon at church yesterday was on worship and he used the verse “taste and see that the Lord is good”. he likened it to something you eat or experience and you want more of it. one bite of cake will not do. one date with a girl that you really are attracted to is not enough. so it should be in our experience with God. we should always be wanting more, but sadly we don’t.
is it because we’ve never truly tasted or seen how good He is. are we so distracted by life and the pursuit of me that we can’t possibly see clearly? is our life so cluttered with other things that our palate is confused and we can’t savor the wonderful flavor of His awesomeness?
i guess that’s what i’m trying to sort out right now. i want more, but what is it that i want more of? i should be wanting more of Him, but sadly my heart runs to lovers less wild. i know that only He can satisfy, so why is it, to quote Andrew Peterson, all i ever seem to chase is me?
i’ve been giving people snippets of Psalms on FB and twitter as i go through the 40 day reading plans in The Voice of the Psalms. it’s a great translation. today, there’s not enough room to post this whole thing and i didn’t want to put 20 posts up, so i’ll just link to here and you can read the whole thing.
Sing a new song to the Eternal One; Sing in one voice to the Eternal, all the earth.
Sing to the Eternal of all the good things He’s done. Bless His name; broadcast the good news of His salvation each and every day.
Enlighten the nations to His splendor; describe His wondrous acts to all people.
For the Eternal One is great indeed and praiseworthy; feared and reverenced above all gods, the True God shall be.
For all human-made, lifeless gods are worthless idols, but the Eternal plotted the vast heavens, shaped every last detail.
Honor and majesty proceed Him; strength and beauty infuse His holy sanctuary.
Give all credit to the Eternal One, families of the world!
Credit Him with glory, honor and strength!
Credit Him with the glory worthy of His magnificent name; gather your sacrifice, and present it at His temple.
Bow down to the Eternal, adorned in holiness; lay awestruck before Him, trembling, all people of the earth.
Shout out to the nations, “The Eternal reigns! Yes, indeed, the world is anchored and will not shake loose. He governs all people with a fair hand.”
And so, let the heavens resound in gladness! Let joy be the earth’s rhythm as the sea and all its creatures roar.
Let the fields grow in triumph, a grand jubilee for all that live there. Let all the trees of the forest dig in and reach high with songs of joy before the Eternal One, for He is on His way. Yes, He is coming to judge the earth.
He will set the world right by His standards, and by His faithfulness, He will examine the people.
i had stopped. one of my friends told me it was because i was depressed. i guess that could be true, but i really don’t know. in the midst of moving and starting over, all the books were packed away and it was easier to just not read. but after buying a bookshelf and unboxing the library, i am slowly getting back into the desire to pick up a book and delve into the pages.
i’m definitely reading passages from the Bible. i’m using The Voice of the Psalms.
where i used to read 4 or 5 books at a time, i’ve pared it down to two for now. i’m working my way through Clay Shirky’s Cognitive Surplus an amazing book about technology and how it has turned consumers into collaborators. also on my nightstand is Ian Cron’s Jesus, My Father, and the CIA-a memoir of sorts. Cron’s Chasing Francis is one of my all time favorite books. i wrote about it’s initial impact on me here.
so my prayer is that i will continue to read. to continue to pursue wisdom. and that in reading that my writing will explode and become what i dream it needs to be.
adjective-done on purpose; deliberate
i need to be more intentional. i don’t need to accidentally stumble onto things. i don’t need to wing it when it comes to the details of life. quite often that is where i live in this random, sporadic, spontaneity that i claim is “who i am”.
the truth is it’s a good excuse to not get things done. it allows me to make relational mistakes and say “i didn’t intend to hurt you” it allows me to be lazy in certain things and pawn it off to my personality.
i need to be deliberate. i need to do things on and with purpose.
i think half of the battle in our lives is realizing what we are and what we are not. i know my strengths and weaknesses, but i can’t be nonchalant about them. i need to be more intentional about maximizing my strengths while not allowing my weaknesses to hamstring me.
so what are you being intentional about? are you doing things with purpose? where does your focus need to be today?
i’ve been searching for clarity.
in Davis Guggenheim’s documentary “It Might Get Loud”, U2 guitarist The Edge is remembering the labor he went through to write the song “Sunday, Bloody Sunday”. he uses the analogy of a managed forest. when you look at it from one angle all you see is a mass of trees, but eventually you turn a corner and see that all the trees are in rows…clarity.
as he’s talking the camera moves to show us that all of the trees are in rows. it was a brilliant moment for me as the visual moved the story along.
i had a few moments like that this past week as i was able to attend the first ever re:createATX One Day conference.
listening to amazing artists like filmmaker Andrew Shapter who shared with us the importance of relationships and their influence on story. jazz trombonist Mike Mordecai and his friends who treated us to a beautiful afternoon of music. Rick Jackson, and executive who shared with us the excitement of Cinsay a new E-commerce company and the wonderful art of balance.
clarity…i started to see the forest in spite of the trees.
i also made the vocal team at Gateway Church. this was a very fulfilling thing for me as people that i love and admire made the decision that i have the skills to sing on a level that i haven’t had the opportunity to experience before.
clarity…moving in the right direction musically.
i also had some breakthrough in my personal life. a friend pointed out to me that i began most of my conversations with “i’m lonely”. he said that i needed to work on being content with myself before i went off trying to fill the loneliness.
clarity…i want to fill my life with good things and good people.
but the highlight of my week had to be attending the 1211 live taping at the original Austin City Limits studio. i mean i got to stand on the stage where Willie Nelson, Johnny Cash, Stevie Ray Vaughn and so many more of my musical heroes have stood and performed. although i was just there to watch and worship, it was surreal to think about all the amazing music that had been played in that very room, and we got to experience amazing, redeeming music that night as well as some beautiful stories.
i’ve always wanted to.
now i do. thanks to my good friend Randy Elrod.
i won the original water color poster for re:create ATX. it’s beautiful. i’m going to have it framed and will enjoy it for many years. i’m hoping to own other pieces in the future. i’d like to have a Scott Erickson.
so i’ve now begun my collection and hope to add more.
that’s what i’ve done with this blog.
i guess i could make excuses….
my life was in the toilet….
i started a new job…
i didn’t feel like writing…
but there’s a problem with that. the problem is…
those aren’t the reasons. i just didn’t feel like writing. maybe those things contributed to the lack of putting pen to paper and fingers to keyboard, but the fact is….
i just didn’t feel like it.
but why? why didn’t i feel like writing? why didn’t i take the time and effort when i enjoy it and it brings me life? i mean i used to read 5 books at a time and i haven’t been doing that either.
pain does funny things to you. it sucks your energy. it steals your joys. it’s a place that i’d rather not be right now, but i know in the long run, it will get better and i will personally be better off for it.
so, i’m going to try and write more. i’m going to try and read more. i’m going to try and create more. i’m going to try and sing more. i’m going to try and live more…