i was thinking about the idea of compromise today…
and how it often flies up in the face of our preferences. i mean there are things that i want to do or see done and they either aren’t going to happen or i’m going to attempt to force them, so i cut a deal with myself or others. i can’t get my way all of the time, and i shouldn’t. so i give up what i want or strike at deal so i can get what i want later. it may not be what i preferred this time, but i have leverage for future interactions. i found myself compromising this past week. it was something that i knew to be wrong, but i cut a deal with myself anyway. i said, it’s not that big of a deal. i began to make excuses for myself and in the end there was hurt and sadness.
i knew the right thing to do and didn’t do it. my preference for what i wanted to do got in the way, so i excused my behavior because it was convenient. i compromised.
so i don’t want to do that any more. i don’t want to make deals with others or myself that are manipulative. i don’t want to have if/then deals with people. i want to be who i say i am.
i wasn’t that this week. i was an ass and i’m sorry.
so no excuses. no compromise. let God build us up to be what He’s called us to be and run toward Him as fast as we can so there will be no need to waffle with ourselves, our family, our friends, or even strangers. let’s love unconditionally with no motive and no thought of what is in it for us.