today is valentines day. this is my third year in a row without a valentine. i even joked with people that i was celebrating Single Awareness Day.
but that is silly. it makes me that much more aware that i am most certainly not alone. i have great friends, and i should spend more time with them. i have an amazing daughter who lives with me and 3 more wonderful children that i get to see several times a month (not near enough). i have parents and family that love me. i also have a God who calls me son and friend, and i daily have to remind myself that He is more than enough. if everything else fades away or disappears, He is still there.
so i will not be S.A.D. today. i will be thankful.
today is also the second day of the lenten season. i decided to go to an Ash Wednesday service last night. i went to the church of my high school friend Cynthia Kepler-Karrar. she’s the pastor of Memorial United Methodist Church in East Austin. it was a beautiful service. her joy in prayer, scripture, and preaching was contagious. i was so very happy and proud to see her in her calling. i’ve always loved confessions and benedictions. and here is the confession from last night.
Face yourself, your life, your brokenness,
Face the wrongs you treasure, the anger you hold dear, the hurts you preserve
Face the darkness that holds you back.
Linger here for a moment, look in the nooks and crannies and the hidden places
For it is in those places that our most stubborn sins hide.
Face even those as God reveals your sin to you.
Then step forward in faith, through the darkness
See all of life, all people and see as God sees
See yourself in the light of God.
Allow God to claim your life, all of your life.
Your humanness, your gifts and your limitations.
Understand the truth of these words:
“In the life, death and resurrection of Christ, you have been offered forgiveness”
And then, allow yourself to accept that forgiveness and live freely in Christ once more.
once more. that means i have lived freely before and i’m probably gonna get bottled up again, but i have been offered forgiveness and so have you. i hope that you see yourself in the light of God today and know that you are loved. every part of you.